Anonymous

Shy. It’s not my favorite word. I spent a big portion of my life being told I was shy and thinking I was shy. Yet, its so restricting. Your brain latches on to the word and it becomes you. You start living and being and thinking and seeing that way.

I eventually grew into the word introvert. Now I’m not a fan of that either. It's also limiting. It feels weak, it feels small, it feels hidden.

Lately I’m liking the word anonymous. To me the word anonymous implies action, and impact, and authenticity - key things I strive for. It's being all those things while not worrying about being seen. So, call me anonymous.

Is it totally a cop out from doing the hard thing, very possible. It’s also choosing to do the hard thing anyway, in a way that works for me, and allowing myself to grow into something more at a pace that’s workable and allowing me to just start. No more delaying, no more perfecting, just start.

Perfect would be me putting my best face forward, literally. Maybe there is someone out there that cares who I am and wants see and experience me. But do I deprive them of a little bit of me until I’m ready to share all of me? I’ve been doing that all along. Long enough. So let’s try something new.

So, this is me, a me you may never meet. But a me that you get to experience in hopes that it will help you, discover you.